Here We Go Again

This week my husband and I decided that we're going to move forward with IVF right away, rather than waiting another month. This means that not only will have undergone IVF over my birthday, but I will be doing it again over Christmas.  Merry Christmas to me!

This IVF cycle will look a little different than the last one.  On December 12, I will start my first injection.  This is a new injection for me and it sounds like it could cause  more side effects than the other injections I've taken.  I will be on this injection for 10-14 days.  After I've started my period on the injection, they will give me an ultrasound to make sure everything looks good and then I will start my other injections.  I will be adding two injections that I was on during the last cycle.  I should be on those injections approximately 9 or 10 days.  I expect egg retrieval to occur around the first week of January.   

I'm not quite sure how to feel about this next cycle of IVF.  In some ways, I think it will be easier the second time around.  I feel like an old pro at getting injections and they no longer scare me.  I also know how my body responds to the medications and I know what to expect when I go to my monitoring appointments.  

I'm a little more unsure about my emotions.  Lately I've been trying to prepare myself for the worst.  What if I don't have any embryos to freeze again?  What if I have another miscarriage or I don't get pregnant?  Would we be willing to try this again if it doesn't work?  

Unfortunately, I don't have the answers to those questions. I've heard that it's recommended to give yourself a deadline of when you give up on infertility treatment, but I don't feel comfortable doing that just yet. I will just try to take it one day a  time again. I already feel that my mood is a little better since I now know when IVF will start again. At least I'm, once again, working towards my goal.